I'm doing better I swear! 

So when I did the last post I was SO motivated. The next day I got so sick it was insane.

So just in the past few days I have been able to do cardio type things without feeling like my lungs are going to collapse!

I met my last goal of drinking LOTS of water. I pee all the time.

I worked out seriously once but since being sick I have just been trying to be active! I have been doing really well with that. I walked to school yesterday, (which is harder than you'd think. straight uphill.) and I have just been trying to walk/bike more.

GOALS:

 Work out at least 2 times this week, (as it's Wednesday,) and not just a big walk, like hardcore workout. 

More veggies, less fried foods.

Keep up with drinking lots of water

Crunches and push-ups every night before bed. (This is something I do a lot!)

I had a moment this past weekend where I felt massive. We went boating and I already felt huge cause all my friends are skinny and gorgeous and then someone, (not naming names, it was harmless) said that he thought I wouldn't be able to fit into a wetsuit because it was bought for someone more...(then he started gesturing slimmer.) He really wasn't trying to be mean. But I almost started crying. However, NO PITY PARTIES ALLOWED! LETS DO THIS!

hey.

I have been totally avoiding this blog because of how terrible I did at it. I had such high hopes! I wanted to be 40 pounds lighter! But I'm 8 pounds heavier. I also didn't delete this blog because I am not one to just give up. So here it goes, try number 2. 

I am slightly lumpier than when I started but I gotta do something! It is seriously so discouraging to be this big. It is super hard for me to lose weight too. It's easy for people to say, "just do it", but they haven't been 175 lbs. Last week was my birthday and there were a lot of pictures taken. There wasn't one picture where I wasn't amazed at how big I looked. In my head I am NOT that big, but there it is, wide load. An ex-boyfriend added me on facebook the other day and I was so bitter that I have gotten so big so I couldn't shove my hotness in his face.

Okay, this is sounding so depressing. I don't just wanna be a negative nancy so lets try this again.

Goals for the week: 

Don't eat out and only have 1 small treat

Go to the gym at least 4 times for at least 30 minutes

Drink more water

Another plus is that I have gotten a lot better on my board this year. My back has healed up pretty good from my accident a few years ago and I'm more consistent and just so much more comfortable on my board than ever before! Just imagine, if I lost a bunch of weight I would be SO GOOD! hehe.